Sometimes I wonder why I'm viewed as just one of the guys. I mean, I clearly am not a guy. I mean, I enjoy knowing that hanging out with the guys is always going to be friendly fun and nothing much more but what friends always do. And then sometimes, I think they forget I am not a guy.
I never really minded before. Just being one of the guys. I always knew I could go to my friends for anything. But as of late, I keep being reminded I am not one of guys. I am one of the girls with the guys. I don't always feel comfortable with some subjects, I don't always enjoy all the actions and games that go on.
In the past couple of years, I have enjoyed doing some girly things. I enjoy looking nice and smelling good. I enjoy being a girl. But when I look nice, no one notices. When I smell good, no one cares. When I'm with the guys, the goodness is wasted sometimes. Girls like completements. I barely hear them. Girls like to know they are important sometimes, I don't always believe I am.
Sometimes I wonder what people think of me, and then sometimes I just don't care. But its good to hear one is important and means something to someone from time to time.
Just my thoughts of late. Maybe I need more girl time ... maybe I need more time on my own ... maybe I don't know!
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