So today was interesting. I answered back to the text this morning. I asked 'Why?'. He was just wondering if I was going on Friday. I then just sent a simple 'You going?'. And got back a 'No don't worry about it'. When I spent today feeling good and happy and unable to worry about him being at the party on Friday. I'd actually like to see him, maybe. Not sure how I'll feel tomorrow yet, but I think I could enjoy his company either way. But as it seems, because of me he won't be going.
I hate it when a guy can't be a man about things. I'm learning to be a strong woman about things. And its not like we had a horrible brake up after being together for like two years. How I feel is a little surprising still but all the same.
Mindy and I had a good long talk today. She fully agrees with me and a few other things. Turns out feeling like they guys think women can't do anything is a shared idea when you work in the lab for a while. She amazing and I'd so go to her now. She's been through a lot and could have been a huge confidant if I would have known sooner. All the same, she's amazing!
And Lorain gave me some really good advice today too. After only hearing a little bit about what's been going on, that I deserve better and should never put up with it. I shouldn't put up with being yelled (because 'he's my man not my dad'), I shouldn't deal with someone who can't trust me. And she gave me the wonderful warning that about 9 out of 10 guys more than likely after one thing when they try to date me. That 9 times out of 10 I'll hate the men I date because I won't be willing to give them some place to park their dick for a while. She made me smile and feel so much better about it all. She also told me I am a better woman than even she is since I can be friendly and nice with an ex even after its over or maybe even ends bad.
Oh, Alexis is taking me to Piqua on Tuesday after I get off so I can get a tattoo. The guy is amazing at free hand and will gladly design what ever I want right then and there. Turns out he's Justin's cousin! dude! He does good work! I've seen one!
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