The Emotional Roller Coaster that is my Life

The weekend has been an emotional roller coaster. That's the only description I can put on it.

Thursday was spent in an absolutely amazing mood. Where I thought nothing could bring me down! I was all around happy and willing to deal with the men in my life. Until late that night. I was already tired when I had a few bad things of my personality pointed out. No ... no harm was meant by it, but it hurt all the same. So I just walked away. I said bye and walked away. I knew I was strong enough to accept it I just needed a little bit. But it began the down fall. (I also found out for sure that one of the guys already moved on and was really happy with his new girl.)

Friday, Cameron had to work his 8 hrs. So after picking up my car and then his. I made a few stops on my way back to his house. Walked around the mall a bit. Tried on some clothes. Then went after a few books. Walden's just didn't have. I ended up at Borders, who did have what I was after. I wondered in and out of a few new stores. And ran into a lady and the young man working in one. I stood in there talking for a good 45 minutes. I was in a good mood, and made it back to Cameron's just before he got home.

James' party was pretty neat. I met a few new people and got my stuff pucked on. It happens. It was after we left that everything I had managed to hold off for a couple of days hit me. I think I scared Cameron on the way back because I just started crying. Unable to stop for a while. I should be use to my unstable emotions by now.

I took an adventure on my own through the big hills on Saturday. Cameron went after Sara. They caught a movie and I avoided company all together until I was stabilized again. I had gotten really up set and not sure why. It was Jimmy and his brutal harshness that made me realize they were there for me, or he wouldn't be trying to talk to me at all. Thanks to him and time to think in the shower, I was doing much better. I went to visit him and then took him to work. Jimmy seemed glad to have me stop by and then Cam and Sara show up too for a bit. Too bad Sara mis-took me for Jimmy's wife, we had to point out Rachel was at work.

Ended up at the levee for a while. Then back for bed. I sat up and talked to James until I feel asleep reading a comic ...

(To be continued tomorrow ... too tired)