What I want more than anything, is to know I have a friend that will be there no matter what. That won't abandon me. That won't throw me to the dogs. That won't be afraid to be themselves with me. I have one of those! Be so far away.

I miss my friend. I want to go down every chance I get. I want to spend time laughing and generally happy. But I can't afford gas every weekend, I can't afford to hang my head and hide from the rest of the world. I wish so much I could.

This wasn't the blog I wanted to write. But its what I'm feeling right now. And right now, I need my friend.