Confusion .... Weekend was good!

Friday night made me wonder just what I really wanted to do about anything or everything. I still don't really know what I want to do about anything.

Saturday ... besides starting out rather boring and lonely, was pretty amazing. I so have enjoyed every time I have gone to Emily's or hung out with her. It was no different. I didn't swim ... wish I could have ... but its cool. Thank god for my best friend. He can always make me smile again (well most of the time :-P).

I left myself horribly confused and unsure after thinking of giving Jesse another chance and discovering I'm not sure how I feel about him anymore. I missed him, and yet, when I was with him, I didn't know how to act. Conversation just doesn't seem to come easy to either of us anymore (if it did). But the other guy started texting like normal again during the weekend. Yet didn't seem to have a need to want to see my at all this weekend. Besides he started a new job today.

I don't know what to do. But I do plan to stay single until I'm back .... Fuck trying to figure it out over 100 miles away.

I can't wait until Next weekend! Ern's going away party :-( ... I'll miss him ... and I'm not gonna really enjoy the meeting on campus that's suppose to last at least six hours. But I'll enjoy seeing my friends again. I'll enjoy the time I get with them. And I may bug someone special to spend just a little time with me again. If that's how he even feels anymore.

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