Saturday

Oh, the weekend has been weird, sorta. I mean, the appointment for my eyes had been forgotten by the, they fitted me. I forgot to grab the piece of pie I bought, it got thrown away. They were nice enough to replace it after I went back for it. The cow slobbered on me. I still don't have all the details to what I would like to know. The car show was pretty awesome! One of the reasons I love to come up for this thing. But seeing my friends and being around those I don't get to see much is worth it. And at least, this evening went much better!

What just happened here?

Its been a fucking crazy week. Between so little sleep, a fuck ton of homework, getting a ticket, and having no time to myself, I have just wanted to curl up and not open my eyes for a long while. I had an exam, a paper, like 4 sets of homework, and not quite enough time to do well in any of it. I barely made it through the week with my head still held up. Then, in my distracted state of driving, I wasn't watching my speed and got a nice little ticket, Fuck the cops sometimes. But I do suppose he was nicer than he could have been. Still ....

I miss being happy. I miss being the girl I was just a short 3 months ago. I am ready for the quarter to be over, its been one of the toughest yet. And I'm almost to my breaking point. I'm almost to my line of sanity.

The guy I was 'dating' just ended things because his life is pretty messed up right now. So, even though I was considering it, a text or two was a bit shocking to me. I may also be being looked into because I knew him .... Not to be told here. I do understand, he needs to get his life back in order .... and I am okay with that.

So, right now I'm sitting here, after a great time in Newport with a great friend and her boy friend, wondering where my life is really headed. I mean, I don't mind at all being single, I rather got use to and enjoyed it. So much more fun to be had! On the other hand, I do miss that feeling of being held, or knowing you have someone to talk to when you need it. Though, I haven't had that in a long time if really that great ever, but the thought is there. I sit here and just keep wondering, why can't I just meet a good sweet guy, who can be masculine yet soft, doesn't have kids, hasn't been married before, has a job, doesn't mind a bit of independence in a girl, and is respectful. I keep hoping its not too much to ask, but maybe it is. Because I haven't found all those qualities yet.

Screw it ... I'll be headed home for the weekend. Its Community Days and Cameron is going with me. I get my eyes tested, maybe new glasses, and hopefully a chance to smile a real true smile again. All the while reading that stupid book for class.

Well here's to the hope of a good weekend [toasting glass of water]!

An Honor Be Given

I've been home since Saturday late morning. Its been a neat weekend. Friday's parties went well. I rather enjoyed the first party more than the second, and not because of who I was with. I knew a lot of people at both, but they thought me the shuffle and had me dancing at the first one. The second was really crowded. And it just seems James seems to attract interesting people, or maybe a little weird. It was kinda amusing though, no offense at all girl, they really weren't that bad, it was just funny because they seemed to just want to debate or something.

Saturday, I got home in time to hit up the bank and still get to the chiropractor, which didn't really help all too much. At this point, if the headaches continue to be that bad, I'll have to find a doctor in Texas so they have time to figure it out. Instead, I'm thinking my wisdom teeth are causing a part of the problem too. My jaw has been really sore all weekend. I went and got my fishing license and went fishing with Christina, JR, Landon, and Rich. I finally got a little guy, that decided swallowing my hook was a good idea. I threw him back, he wasn't big enough for anything. They did keep a couple of catfish and a perch, I think. I went home in time to grab mom for Night at the Museum, Smithsonian. I would be so happy, if the Air and Space Museum came to life while I was there! Oh, my gawd, can you imagine my reaction! Either way, the movie was good! And I want one of the Einsteins.

Oh, Landon got his first fish!

Sunday, I slept almost all day, finally caught up a little. I didn't do any homework, instead, went for a bike ride with mom. The neighbor's dog made it all the way home with us. I had to drive him back down and drop him off when we got back. And went to watch a movie with Charles.

Today is Monday, Memorial Day. I wish all those serving safety and thanks. Its an honor to serve the country. So, I caught the service up town and breakfast from Phil's. Now I'm gonna get started on my homework and see if I can get a good bit of it done before I head back.

Apartment Talk

Alright, I just have to say, I rather enjoyed the conversation last night about a baby in the apartment. So we got on the conversation of the fact that we all just felt too young to even consider having a baby any time soon. I have all intent of finishing college and being out a bit. So then I pointed out that if I did end up having a baby before I graduated, I was pretty sure James and Cameron would not be happy and even I wouldn't know what to do. And I was sure they wouldn't want to deal with it. James made the comment along the lines of 'if I have to deal with a baby running around the apartment, i'm getting at least 4 dogs just to make you suffer'. Okay, so I was perfectly happy with that idea and could deal with that! LOL ... I just had to say thanks for the laugh, it was priceless. I'm sure interesting conversations will occasionally pop up like that!

I can't wait!

I want to go to the Zoo Next week

Monday ~ No Classes ... I'll be at home.

Tuesday ~ Thermo 2 Class ... Jews and Islam Canceled. Done at 1pm.

Wednesday ~ Machine Design Project and Class ... Homework Due ... Final Experiment day in lab. Done at 5pm.

Thursday ~ Thermo 2 EXAM ... Jews and Islam Research Paper Due. Done at 5pm.

Friday ~ Machine Class ... Instruments Class Homework due. Done at 2pm. Friday heading home for community Days when Cameron gets off work.

Which day works best for those who would like to go to the zoo? Zoo is open until 6pm starting next week. I want to go! Who's in and Tuesday or Friday is probably best for me. I'm gonna do my best to get as much done as I can this weekend in the way of homework! Then I'll really be able to enjoy it and maybe dinner afterward. Let me know!

Weekend in tow

Maifest went rather well I thought. Yes, I tried to peer pressure James into drinking with me, forgetting I can't peer pressure her the way I did. It doesn't work out for me as well. But I had a good time, a few good laughs, and a some stories. Though, the night, in the end, ended badly for me, the Festival was pretty good. And next time, I'm gonna try to limit myself. And I've considered the fact that it might just have been me being to damn stressed for too damn long and not doing anything for myself in a long time. Again, I hope my friends can forgive my sorry ass for the mistakes I seem to keep making. I do have a good time with James, its just lately something has triggered other emotions I hold back at many other times. And am afraid of pushing the few amazing friends I have away because of my unstable emotions when I am in classes.

Saturday, besides having a constant splitting headache all day, and not holding food down in the morning, I have to say the pool party was great! It was great to see Emily again! And I got to swim this time. I did have a blast. Drank a couple of stewarts and cokes and played apples to apples with Kaitlin (sp?) and a few others. I really enjoyed the night. Its just eventually I got really tired and my headache returned in far better force than before.

Though I can't entirely blame the headache on a hangover. I've had the splitting headache everyday for the past two or three weeks now. I get nauseous with the headaches a lot of times now, and when they get really bad, they can make me cry. I don't know what's up, but i'm dealing with the pain like I normally do.

Today, I should be doing homework, instead I have watched tv and gone shopping. Eventually I'll head back up to campus and get started on that paper that is due Tuesday! Just gotta find some of the quotes and hope for at least 5 pages! And other homework too. Gonna try to stay on top of it.

I want to go to Bree's Friday, and home for the long weekend! The kids graduate Sunday, and I would love to be with my family, since i can't go on vacation this year.

I really kind of am ready to go back to Texas. It was so much less stressful for me!

Beer, Bulls, and Brunch

Weekend ... Went well.
I went home Friday night, convinced Rich I wanted to go to the bar. Hated the horrible karaoke (the same five singers just kept singing and they were my parents age) and decided to find another bar. Got there just before 1am, and even with people inside, the bar was locked. Last call is normally 2am on a Friday, my thoughts were WTF?! I was a bit pissed, but called it a night and went home.

Saturday, I did my running around. Picked up the necklace I had had made for my mom. She went with me, so surprise was almost ruined. Gary did a great job of trying to convince my mom to walk around and look. Only half worked because I told her to go look around and instead she told the lady she was told to "get lost". I only got to see the guy for a little bit. Around 5 stolen minutes in Pappey's backyard and a hug good bye on a back country road. I need found the Mack Arena, because Rich wanted to know where it was and what it was all about. Just like normal, the cowboys (or so they think they are) couldn't stay on the bulls. Some of them don't look good in tight pants. Even the jackpot round wasn't very good. Its just not the same as a 'real rodeo', that's for sure. Last weekend is half price and the last weekend in May.

Sunday was telling dad he was buying lunch for mom, giving her the necklace she didn't expect. She wore it all day, I wasn't sure of how she really felt about it but she seemed to like it. She ended up paying for the movie and my gas, because like a dummy I left my purse hanging on the chair at home. I paid her back when we got home. She loved the movie and the time together. As did I. Even if you think it would be dorky, the Knowing with Nicolas Cage is really good! A bit weird but good!

And a late night doing homework ended the weekend.

My bunny rabbits

When mom called last night, she asked if she could sell my bunnies. I asked what they would be used for, show and more likely breeding. And I said yes. I am okay with giving up my girls if they are used for what I raised them for. I didn't want them to be killed, they were the best I've ever raised for the standard. So, the fact that they will become mommies with these people, I'm okay with. Seems mom actually offered them all 5 of my girls. I have 3 that are good and the mom of them, but the fourth needs to have her belly fixed up before anything can be done with her. She was the one I wanted to keep as a pet .... but mom offered her to them too. Those 5 comprise most of the 7 left. Its a weird feeling knowing they might be leaving but yet I'm okay with saying good bye.

So much to do .....

Alright ...

• Lab Report [Done]
• Stillman Paper [Started]
• Marib Dam Paper [ ]
• Study for Machine Analysis and Design Midterm
• Study for Measurements Class Midterm
• Homework in both of those classes due Monday.
• And keeping up with Thermo 2 this time

Its still gonna be a long week.

Home for the weekend.

Midterms ... and Plans ...

Hmm ... original plans of a 'date' where dinner was cooked for me and a movie ... got canceled. Seems his tooth got really infected or something and he can't open his mouth and it hurts really bad. He's gonna have to go to a hospital because the dentist can't do anything right now.
-And mom has to work tomorrow anyways. I would need to be back early on Sunday to study for my exam on Monday.

So, with no real reason to leave the city for more than a few hours ... I will be somewhere closer this weekend. I need to pick up my drug test papers from my mom, so I'm gonna meet her in Dayton for Dinner later and maybe go see Tia if she is still in Dayton for the evening.

Tomorrow, maybe homework or what not ... Studying, paper writing ... shit like that ....
Sunday ... Studying (but not all day)

Next week:
2 papers to write for Jews and Islam
Lab Report due Wednesday
Numerical Analysis Midterm Monday
Machine Analysis and Design Midterm Friday (Homework due the next Monday)
Measurements and Instruments LAB Midterm Friday (Homework due the next Monday)

So, If I can get my homework done before the end of the week, I will be able to enjoy my weekend at home next weekend.