Okay... how are all four of us fitting in a Jetta with the driver? How is that going to work exactly? If you pick us up and then have to drop us off, how is that going to work? I barely fit in the back seat with my little legs? Can you please explain this? Think about it, Honestly??

We do need to figure this out. I want to know things are worked out and going to at least have a plan for Sunday. It's looking like 4:30 maybe 5 before we can all get there. I can be there sooner, but Tia can't leave her dog in her cage that damn long. So, we need to talk, please. and figure out how you are going to make the run to pick us up or switch things a bit. It really is something that needs to be talked about a bit..... I am tired of worrying about Tia having an attack and having to walk so damn far, and her getting home way too late. And I can't have my rental get hurt either. That would be the last thing I needed... Ideas?

Headaches and Seashells

How much worse can things get? I shouldn't have to put $1000 dollars into my car each quarter. I think it's truly time to consider talking to mom and dad about a new car. I can't do this any more. He's sitting in the parking lot, they have no idea he's there yet, he won't get in until they can fit him in. I've cried too much. And I feel like I don't belong in Ohio, ever again. Like it'll be a place I'll visit because of a few people, but that I don't belong there. I know why, and you'll never ask why, because you don't want to hear it.

FML .... I'm ready for a long vacation. I'm ready for a girl's evening or weekend. I'm ready to really have fun.

[Update ... Fireworks]
I was thinking ... It's not just Tia and I that will be coming with me, we also have 2 others. Rather tall guys. Seth and Josh will be coming along also, as of last week and right now. I am planning on all 4 of us coming down in one car. And I'm just hoping the car I end up with is big enough for both the men to fit comfortably. ......... how's this going to work?

........... If you only knew my heart ..........

You would understand why I miss you so much.

I'm tired, and I have so much to do at work. I've been leaving at 7pm after going in early. Tonight I only left at 7 because what I needed the website couldn't seem to give me. So I packed up and went home, after 2 more hours of over time. A few more tomorrow and life won't be so much fun. I'm looking forward to Friday. :) Except, if the work isn't done by then, I'll be in Sunday night. :-/ I also have homework to finish .... and then the class is over. :D

Going to see Terra Cotta Warriors this Sunday. I'm excited. And only a week and half and i'll be taking my 3 ever round trip flight! Hitting town late, then heading home.

Other blog

Just because I am very far behind ... and didn't want to do my homework ...
http://adventuresofawanderer.blogspot.com/
Has 3 new posts with pictures. :)

Another Sad Goodbye

Shoot, I know I'm getting use to goodbyes, but it makes them no less hard to say. I had to say goodbye to 3 good people today. One a really good friend. I sat at my desk, forcing myself to work most of the day. So I was really thankful he wanted to go get dinner. He feel asleep on the way down, but it was great. though when we got back, it was another goodbye to go. :( And yes, I would love to let a few tears go, since I'm really unsure if I'll ever see him again. [figures crossed] that it might be next summer when we are both back. If not, NEW YORK CITY here I come! Well Jersey, but New York City will be my excuse to spend a couple of days with him again. :)

Sad goodbye ... yet such fond memories. [there is no smiley that could show my true feeling in a facial expression]

So Clarence may be a little questionable, but I'm still looking forward to a good adventure. A girl's kind of weekend! Got the passport last weekend and my birth certificate back this week. I'm good to go! And the passport, is actually pretty cool looking! [wink] Besides only taking a week and half to reach my hands from putting in for it. :) amazing to me!

Clarence ... may your pieces rest in peace

All I have to say .... I love my good boy. He has been great to me and for the price, more than I could ever ask for! He's been the best man so far, faithful and trusty. But little by little ... He's been falling apart. A side emblem here, a mirror there. An ignition coil or two now. He's had more issues in the past two months than I can remember happening in such a short period.

Basically ... Another ignition coil will need to be replaced in the next couple of weeks. And I just re-adhered the rear view mirror. I guess I should stop parking him in the sun. :( I hope he can make it back to Ohio.

Is way too ready to move on in life.
You'll never understand.

[it's been a long couple of weeks, nothing can go right, ever]

Good Byes can be forever ....

I do rather hate good byes. And yet, I have grown rather accustom to shaking a hand or giving a good strong hug good bye these days. I've said good bye to friends from home on my way back to Cincinnati for another week or two. I've said good bye to my friends in Cincinnati to travel to a job half way across the country. I've said good bye to the friends I've made during my time of learning a new job or two. And the cycle starts over again every 3 months or so.

I'm getting use to saying good bye to people I love, as friends, as siblings, as people. But here I sit again, unwilling to say good bye just yet. I have one day, maybe a week before they are gone again, and I'm left here working without the ever familiar sound of the guys just a cube pen over. Where I can get up and walk over and get a "hey, what's up" from three guys I've grown to adore. Maybe I'm bad at good byes and that's why I hate them so much. I know I'll be broken up a bit more than normal this time around. I've made genuine friends this quarter. Steve ... good guy from Michigan/Kansas, Sergey ... from Jersey and his love of space, Jared ... who I didn't get along with all the time, Alex ... from Louisville/Oklahoma and graduated, Michelle ... a full timer here but a great friend to have, and Brian ... from Cali! The first two I will miss the most of all. I didn't expect to miss anyone as much as I will these guys.

These aren't the only good byes I'll be saying though. I may be saying good bye to Texas for good this time around. I don't seem to have a contract with co-op space to come back to. I haven't gotten an interview for the other job and maybe I should look into a new state, a new place. Yet it won't really matter, good byes are always going to be said, I suppose.

Though, I never thought when I said good bye the last time I talked to you, it might just really be one of the last times I would be saying good bye to you. I do so much miss home, yet it's getting a whole lot easier to not want to come back the more things change around me. I've learned never to expect for my plans to actually happen and to stop asking. I'm far more independent now-a-days, and proud of it. I no longer look forward to certain things, and I don't want to change any of it. I have grown as a person and I have grown into me.

I love that I have followed my dreams. This is something I have wanted for almost as long as I can remember. I fit a lot better in this world than in the old few. Yet, I could be a feather in the wind. And some days I wonder what you'd do if I just never called/texted or left another post again? What if I changed my number and walked on down the road without telling anyone where I went?

Except good ole Tia, the one friend I know I'll never get rid of, we are destined to grow old together and bitch about the world. As girl, you have been there since we were in kindergarten and even after that. We lose touch and yet we find each other again. I think that's says a lot about the bond we have created. And you know I'll be here for you day or night at any time in my life!

Now, good byes aren't always forever right? I hope not. Because if I can go see Sergey with an adventure to New York City, I will! And there is nothing in Kansas but I'll try to go see Steve too! So this is me ... saying good bye. It's been a good run of events!

Starting a List of things to do before I Die

So, I think I'm going to start a Bucket List. I know I'm 21, but it's a good thing to have. Reminds you of all the things you want to do in life. And you never know how long you'll really live. I've already got around 10 things on it in my mind. Now just what kind of medium to put said list on. :-/

And it has begun. It has 16 things on it. And little by little they will be fulfilled.

I'm beginning to wonder if I might have wasted my money on a plane ticket home. I know James will enjoy me being back for a bit, or I do hope so! I know I can't wait to see mom and Tia. But I feel like not another soul really cares if I make it home again.