Just a few things:
Saw a low speed cop chase on my way home from James' Monday. That was amusing.
Quiz in Circuits was postponed until Friday morning.
I still can't bring myself to read that stupid book on WW2.
And it seems Monday while I was out, someone stole an expensive watch from down stairs. I didn't know there were things down stairs. But because no one will say anything, things just got a lot more strict. And I need to clean my room up better and then also hide my heater. Just in case they do room searches without my knowledge. I think I will also be asking from my room keys and lock it up when I leave. I don't want to be that way, but it has to be one of the new girls in the house. I can't remember a single time last year when there was a theft report or a security breech. And just since these girls moved in there have now been at least 2 security breeches and thefts resulting in over $1000 in loses.
Lets hope we have a good soul in the house and they will turn things back in ....
I really do need to get out for next year!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Almost broke it this time ....
I took my chances this morning ... drove a little too fast and cried because the pressure hurt so bad. I had ice melting down my sock half the drive, and I could barely stand the sudden spasms ... Cruise control became a friend.
It popped louder than I've heard it pop since 8th Grade ... It was loud enough for me to hear over me crashing into the wall as I hit the floor. It twisted all funny ... and I could barely walk. The fact that I could still put a little weight on it made me think it probably wasn't broken. But I cried the whole way because it hurt so bad.
I still can't believe it happened ... I was doing great down the stairs.
It popped as I got through the construction of Dayton. And I grabbed the steering wheel so hard to deal with how bad it hurt. That pop allowed for more motion .... it just doesn't do side to side ... and it can't be touched on the outside. It hurts way too much!
It popped louder than I've heard it pop since 8th Grade ... It was loud enough for me to hear over me crashing into the wall as I hit the floor. It twisted all funny ... and I could barely walk. The fact that I could still put a little weight on it made me think it probably wasn't broken. But I cried the whole way because it hurt so bad.
I still can't believe it happened ... I was doing great down the stairs.
It popped as I got through the construction of Dayton. And I grabbed the steering wheel so hard to deal with how bad it hurt. That pop allowed for more motion .... it just doesn't do side to side ... and it can't be touched on the outside. It hurts way too much!
Strike another off the list ... that makes 2 of 9 ....
Strike another one off the list ... Seems I won't be going to San Diego ... Damn, and that one was my favorite of them all! They just offered so much ....
Dear Alicia:
Thank you for your interest in co-op opportunities with ATA Engineering, and for submitting your resume through the University of Cincinnati Division of Professional Practice. Unfortunately, we currently have no position commensurate with your background.
We wish you the best of luck in your search for an appropriate position.
Sally R
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So yeah ... disappointment as another gets scratched.
Dear Alicia:
Thank you for your interest in co-op opportunities with ATA Engineering, and for submitting your resume through the University of Cincinnati Division of Professional Practice. Unfortunately, we currently have no position commensurate with your background.
We wish you the best of luck in your search for an appropriate position.
Sally R
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So yeah ... disappointment as another gets scratched.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Comedy, Beer, and a Drag Show
Its been a night!
Between Comedy of the indecent kind to "We didn't want to confuse the cows" and they were voting on time.
To a chicken tenders meal and a pumpkin beer.
Then a Drag Show of amazing proportions! Including "Haywood Yablowme" and "Krystal Moore" and many others. Its been an evening ....
Now a party at AEPi! Details Later....
Between Comedy of the indecent kind to "We didn't want to confuse the cows" and they were voting on time.
To a chicken tenders meal and a pumpkin beer.
Then a Drag Show of amazing proportions! Including "Haywood Yablowme" and "Krystal Moore" and many others. Its been an evening ....
Now a party at AEPi! Details Later....
I don't know what to do!
Here's what I wonder about ....
Taylor invited me to a party at his frat tonight say around 10 or 11.
I want to go ... but if James can't talk Scott into going, I won't know anyone except Taylor and the guys I've only met once before. Yeah, perfect time to network myself and make a few new friends, but most of the time, I just clam up and shy away from putting myself out there.
This would be the second party that Taylor has invited me to, that I've gone home for.
Mom is also expecting me home this afternoon. She even put in to take off Saturday. I'm just not sure she'll understand if I stay to go to this party and then wonder home mid afternoon tomorrow. I think she'd be upset and tell me she wasn't.
I don't really know what to do. I just don't know.....
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Taylor invited me to a party at his frat tonight say around 10 or 11.
I want to go ... but if James can't talk Scott into going, I won't know anyone except Taylor and the guys I've only met once before. Yeah, perfect time to network myself and make a few new friends, but most of the time, I just clam up and shy away from putting myself out there.
This would be the second party that Taylor has invited me to, that I've gone home for.
Mom is also expecting me home this afternoon. She even put in to take off Saturday. I'm just not sure she'll understand if I stay to go to this party and then wonder home mid afternoon tomorrow. I think she'd be upset and tell me she wasn't.
I don't really know what to do. I just don't know.....
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Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Strike one of them off ....
So it seems, Gulfstream is interviewing tomorrow, on campus.
But I won't be interviewing.
They aren't looking for any Mechanicals. I'm a little disappointed. They were my first pick.
Now the hope lies in Lockheed or ATA or NASA.
:-/
But I won't be interviewing.
They aren't looking for any Mechanicals. I'm a little disappointed. They were my first pick.
Now the hope lies in Lockheed or ATA or NASA.
:-/
Monday, October 20, 2008
Week 4.5
This week:
-I have a 4 page paper due on Wednesday. Its over the books I've been trying to read. I have finally finished the first book. Now an article to read and then to the Writing! :-/
-I had a quiz today in Kinematics and Dynamics of Machines. It was a quiz and it took my 45 minutes. I have a feeling I will get homework in that class Wednesday.
(Always due a week later.)
-A Fluid Mechanics exam on Thursday. So we'll just be hoping for average, because that class kills me every time I try to do the homework. Its just bad book choice and horrible teacher.
-Manufacturing Processes has to have an idea for my 20 page paper tomorrow. IDEAS??
(Only thing I can really think of is how a Refrigerator is manufactured. Would require time at Norcold probably too.)
-3 Chapters in Circuits to do homework problems to. (I got a 96 on my exam - that was average.)
Also on the schedule of things:
SWE tonight at 6pm ....
Pizza night with the house mates on Tuesday from 6 to 7 ....
Formula SAE general meeting on Thursday at 6pm ... Dinner with Bret afterward.
FNL? if I don't go home.
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-I have a 4 page paper due on Wednesday. Its over the books I've been trying to read. I have finally finished the first book. Now an article to read and then to the Writing! :-/
-I had a quiz today in Kinematics and Dynamics of Machines. It was a quiz and it took my 45 minutes. I have a feeling I will get homework in that class Wednesday.
(Always due a week later.)
-A Fluid Mechanics exam on Thursday. So we'll just be hoping for average, because that class kills me every time I try to do the homework. Its just bad book choice and horrible teacher.
-Manufacturing Processes has to have an idea for my 20 page paper tomorrow. IDEAS??
(Only thing I can really think of is how a Refrigerator is manufactured. Would require time at Norcold probably too.)
-3 Chapters in Circuits to do homework problems to. (I got a 96 on my exam - that was average.)
Also on the schedule of things:
SWE tonight at 6pm ....
Pizza night with the house mates on Tuesday from 6 to 7 ....
Formula SAE general meeting on Thursday at 6pm ... Dinner with Bret afterward.
FNL? if I don't go home.
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Friday, October 17, 2008
The search continues
And now it seems I have to pick between 15 and 25. Screw that ... I'm not looking for a Winter Co-op. I want a Spring one. That gives me too quarters. But I have about half a week to get what she wants me to have.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
The jobs I chose to apply for....
Okay, so I think I had to have all my decisions in by the end of today. So I checked and applied for 9 jobs. I don't think I went for any off the list. Those just sounded okay.
Jobs as Follows that were applied for, in my own ranking order:
Gulfstream (GA)
Lockheed Martin (TX)
ATA Engineering (CA)
NASA Stennis Space Center (MS)
Orbital Sciences Corp. (CA)
WPAFB - Aerospace Propulsion Office (OH)
Northwest Airlines (MN)
WPAFB - Aeronautical Systems Center (OH)
National Air & Space Intelligence Center (NASIC) (OH)
Jobs as Follows that were applied for, in my own ranking order:
Gulfstream (GA)
Lockheed Martin (TX)
ATA Engineering (CA)
NASA Stennis Space Center (MS)
Orbital Sciences Corp. (CA)
WPAFB - Aerospace Propulsion Office (OH)
Northwest Airlines (MN)
WPAFB - Aeronautical Systems Center (OH)
National Air & Space Intelligence Center (NASIC) (OH)
The co-op Search
Alright ... for those of you unfamiliar with how finding a co-op job works:
1: I have to read through descriptions of jobs. There are 550 for Mechanicals to apply for through an online site used by UC called place pro.
2: I have to search through these 550 jobs and pick out up to 20 to apply to.
-I searched using keywords to narrow down to more around what I might be willing to work with.
3: I have to pick these jobs (normally only 12 to 15) and rate them 'very high' so the company gets my resume.
4: The company then has to contact me for an interview or other information.
5: I have to go through the interview process.
6: I have to be offered a job. This is the point where I have the opportunity to be a bit more picky about which job I would prefer over the other.
So basically ... the jobs I listed in the previous post are jobs I would be willing or have already applied for. I need to pick about 10 more. Ideas? Either on search keywords or which of the following I should rank 'very high'. I have already applied to NASA and Lockheed Martin. Both are high on my want list!
1: I have to read through descriptions of jobs. There are 550 for Mechanicals to apply for through an online site used by UC called place pro.
2: I have to search through these 550 jobs and pick out up to 20 to apply to.
-I searched using keywords to narrow down to more around what I might be willing to work with.
3: I have to pick these jobs (normally only 12 to 15) and rate them 'very high' so the company gets my resume.
4: The company then has to contact me for an interview or other information.
5: I have to go through the interview process.
6: I have to be offered a job. This is the point where I have the opportunity to be a bit more picky about which job I would prefer over the other.
So basically ... the jobs I listed in the previous post are jobs I would be willing or have already applied for. I need to pick about 10 more. Ideas? Either on search keywords or which of the following I should rank 'very high'. I have already applied to NASA and Lockheed Martin. Both are high on my want list!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Possible Jobs: Searches included: Aerospace, Air
ATA Engineering Inc.: San Diego, CA
-Any where from amusment park rides, to aircraft, launch vehicles, satellites, consumer electronics, sports equipment and more.
-YES: Applied!
Orbital Sciences Corp.: Vandenberg AFB, CA
-MatLab, analysis, but with ROCKETS.
-Applied!
Gulfstream: Savannah, GA
-Private Jets, Government jobs, etc.
-WANT: Applied!
Lockheed Martin Corp.: Houston, TX
-government jets and high speed planes, this discription also mainly included rockets. (I think)
-WANT: Applied!
NASA Stennis Space Center: SSC, MS
-Rocket test lab.
-MAYBE: Applied!
Delta Air Lines: Atlanta, GA
-Fleet Team Engineering sounded okay.
AFRL - Space and Missile Propulsion: Edwards AFB, CA
-Laser Propulsion
Arnold Engineering Development: Arnold AFB, TN
-No description of possible projects that would be worked on.
B/E Aerospace: Winston-Salem, NC
-They do mainly commercial interior stuff, testing, but filing, basic drawings, etc.
Aurora Casket Co.: Aurora, IN
-Burial Caskets - NO
Comair, Inc.: Erlanger, KY
-'Plan: Three Phase 1) Growth - 2-4 quarters under a degreed engineer mentor working specific pre-defined projects / repairs. 2) Assimilation - 2-4 quarters taking partial to full ownership in both assigned and self designed projects / repairs. 3) Full time employment Benefits: Helps Comair R & E establish a pool of potential full time Engineering candidates. Introduces UC Engineering student to a highly energetic work environment where studies shall be directly applied to business and profitability.'
-Not sure ... a little too close to here?
National Air and Space Intelligence Center: WPAFB, Dayton, OH
-'The student will assist in the research and development of mass flow meters.'
Northwest Airlines: Minneapolis, MN
-seems like mainly computer work, with some on the floor work with technicians ....
-MAYBE: Applied.
Wright Patterson Air Force Base: Dayton, OH
-Has several job areas. All require much time, due to having to get high security clearance.
-MAYBE????
At this point I have to pick up to 15 jobs to apply to. I have 6. I mainly only want four of them. These are the ones I have mentioned with yes or want. I really want ATA, but I'm not sure with my GPA being so close to the minimum requirement, that I'll even get a call. (We can hope)! Anyways.... Seggestions on what I should choose off this list? I'll keep looking but not until tomorrow. Late dinner?
-Any where from amusment park rides, to aircraft, launch vehicles, satellites, consumer electronics, sports equipment and more.
-YES: Applied!
Orbital Sciences Corp.: Vandenberg AFB, CA
-MatLab, analysis, but with ROCKETS.
-Applied!
Gulfstream: Savannah, GA
-Private Jets, Government jobs, etc.
-WANT: Applied!
Lockheed Martin Corp.: Houston, TX
-government jets and high speed planes, this discription also mainly included rockets. (I think)
-WANT: Applied!
NASA Stennis Space Center: SSC, MS
-Rocket test lab.
-MAYBE: Applied!
Delta Air Lines: Atlanta, GA
-Fleet Team Engineering sounded okay.
AFRL - Space and Missile Propulsion: Edwards AFB, CA
-Laser Propulsion
Arnold Engineering Development: Arnold AFB, TN
-No description of possible projects that would be worked on.
B/E Aerospace: Winston-Salem, NC
-They do mainly commercial interior stuff, testing, but filing, basic drawings, etc.
Aurora Casket Co.: Aurora, IN
-Burial Caskets - NO
Comair, Inc.: Erlanger, KY
-'Plan: Three Phase 1) Growth - 2-4 quarters under a degreed engineer mentor working specific pre-defined projects / repairs. 2) Assimilation - 2-4 quarters taking partial to full ownership in both assigned and self designed projects / repairs. 3) Full time employment Benefits: Helps Comair R & E establish a pool of potential full time Engineering candidates. Introduces UC Engineering student to a highly energetic work environment where studies shall be directly applied to business and profitability.'
-Not sure ... a little too close to here?
National Air and Space Intelligence Center: WPAFB, Dayton, OH
-'The student will assist in the research and development of mass flow meters.'
Northwest Airlines: Minneapolis, MN
-seems like mainly computer work, with some on the floor work with technicians ....
-MAYBE: Applied.
Wright Patterson Air Force Base: Dayton, OH
-Has several job areas. All require much time, due to having to get high security clearance.
-MAYBE????
At this point I have to pick up to 15 jobs to apply to. I have 6. I mainly only want four of them. These are the ones I have mentioned with yes or want. I really want ATA, but I'm not sure with my GPA being so close to the minimum requirement, that I'll even get a call. (We can hope)! Anyways.... Seggestions on what I should choose off this list? I'll keep looking but not until tomorrow. Late dinner?
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
The World doesn't have enough time....
This week:
I have a shit ton of homework. I have only one exam now. So here it goes: what I have to do this week and some of next.
[ X ]Gotta get a Formula sheet ready for circuits.
[ X ]Circuits Exam Wednesday at 8am.
[ ]Fluids HW: Due Thursday morning before class.
[ ]Kinematics and Dynamics HW: Due Friday morning.
[ ]Kinematics and Dynamics Exam Monday.
[ ]Fluids Exam Next Thursday.
[ ]I also have to write a 5 page paper for Deconstructing by next Wednesday.
I have to have a book read and 3 interviews watched to write it.
I have a shit ton of homework. I have only one exam now. So here it goes: what I have to do this week and some of next.
[ X ]Gotta get a Formula sheet ready for circuits.
[ X ]Circuits Exam Wednesday at 8am.
[ ]Fluids HW: Due Thursday morning before class.
[ ]Kinematics and Dynamics HW: Due Friday morning.
[ ]Kinematics and Dynamics Exam Monday.
[ ]Fluids Exam Next Thursday.
[ ]I also have to write a 5 page paper for Deconstructing by next Wednesday.
I have to have a book read and 3 interviews watched to write it.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Slow Crawl of Deception
The weekend ... was not what I wished it could be.
Friday, I'm pretty sure some guy in the truck a lane over was whistling at me. I'm serious. The first time I looked over he was looking between his seats back at me. Then when I looked back at the next light he was still trying to get my attention. Lights changed and I drove away bewildered.
Mr. Hoover really liked the Salsa Stoopid. He actually ate a small spoon full. And then stood there fighting the tears. But he was really excited about it. He loves hot things I guess. I didn't get to catch all the teachers I wanted too. I didn't get to spend as much time as I would have liked with a few of them.
Hung out with Christina and JR for a bit on Friday. Avoided all homework...
Saturday, I did basically nothing. I didn't wake up early enough to get a new tire. I didn't get up early enough to take my baby over to the vet. I did pluck some hair from one of the older girls in the barn and let her run the yard for a bit. We went to see "Lakeview Terrace" the new Samuel L. Jackson movie. I'm not sure I heard him say 'Mother fucker' once. I do recommend the movie though! I discovered how much I really do enjoy the music by Blessid Union of Souls.
Sunday, well ... slept in again. And now I'm finishing the homework due tomorrow. I promised myself I wouldn't be doing homework last minute all the time. So far, I've broken that promise. I have a Circuits Exam on Wednesday. And a Kin&Dyn of Machines Exam on Friday.
The baby is getting so big! She really playful and left me with a couple of new scars this weekend. I've been scratched and bitten. But I'm gonna miss her all the same again. She's so much like Sweetie its scary ... I've already made the mistake once this weekend of calling her by the wrong name. And I was the one that brought the family to the attention that I hadn't seen Katie all weekend. Seems they can't recall seeing her in the past few weeks. Looks like she's gone missing. And she was one of the best cats we had.... so maybe i wish the weekend would have gone differently ... there were people I wanted to see but didn't. And well ... I guess it goes on.
Friday, I'm pretty sure some guy in the truck a lane over was whistling at me. I'm serious. The first time I looked over he was looking between his seats back at me. Then when I looked back at the next light he was still trying to get my attention. Lights changed and I drove away bewildered.
Mr. Hoover really liked the Salsa Stoopid. He actually ate a small spoon full. And then stood there fighting the tears. But he was really excited about it. He loves hot things I guess. I didn't get to catch all the teachers I wanted too. I didn't get to spend as much time as I would have liked with a few of them.
Hung out with Christina and JR for a bit on Friday. Avoided all homework...
Saturday, I did basically nothing. I didn't wake up early enough to get a new tire. I didn't get up early enough to take my baby over to the vet. I did pluck some hair from one of the older girls in the barn and let her run the yard for a bit. We went to see "Lakeview Terrace" the new Samuel L. Jackson movie. I'm not sure I heard him say 'Mother fucker' once. I do recommend the movie though! I discovered how much I really do enjoy the music by Blessid Union of Souls.
Sunday, well ... slept in again. And now I'm finishing the homework due tomorrow. I promised myself I wouldn't be doing homework last minute all the time. So far, I've broken that promise. I have a Circuits Exam on Wednesday. And a Kin&Dyn of Machines Exam on Friday.
The baby is getting so big! She really playful and left me with a couple of new scars this weekend. I've been scratched and bitten. But I'm gonna miss her all the same again. She's so much like Sweetie its scary ... I've already made the mistake once this weekend of calling her by the wrong name. And I was the one that brought the family to the attention that I hadn't seen Katie all weekend. Seems they can't recall seeing her in the past few weeks. Looks like she's gone missing. And she was one of the best cats we had.... so maybe i wish the weekend would have gone differently ... there were people I wanted to see but didn't. And well ... I guess it goes on.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Globe's Age
USSR still has its territories: Fall of USSR 1990
Germany is in two colors: Fall of the Berlin Wall 1989
Malawi (African Nation): Been around for a long while
Tanzania: Sometime after 1964 (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tanzania)
Mosambique: Independent from Portugal in 1975 (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mosambique)
Upper Volta: French time (1919–1932, 1947–1958), Republic of (1958–1984)
Dahomey: 1960-1975, Renamed Benin in 1975
Ceylon: Sri Lanka Since 1972
Central African Republic: Independent Since 1960
Vietnam: One country but labeled N. and S. Zones
Korea: also one but small line and two colors separating North and South
Equatorial Guinea: Independence from Spain in 1968
Sierra Leone: Independent from UK in 1961, declared a Republic in 1971
Gambia: Independent from UK in 1965, declared a Republic in 1970
Not sure what being Declared a Republic can do .... we'll check on it more later. Now if I did my re-looking right, the following years should be close .... I am thinking that independence doesn't really mean a thing. So the Search continues.
So far ... some time between 1968 and 1972 ....
Germany is in two colors: Fall of the Berlin Wall 1989
Malawi (African Nation): Been around for a long while
Tanzania: Sometime after 1964 (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tanzania)
Mosambique: Independent from Portugal in 1975 (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mosambique)
Upper Volta: French time (1919–1932, 1947–1958), Republic of (1958–1984)
Dahomey: 1960-1975, Renamed Benin in 1975
Ceylon: Sri Lanka Since 1972
Central African Republic: Independent Since 1960
Vietnam: One country but labeled N. and S. Zones
Korea: also one but small line and two colors separating North and South
Equatorial Guinea: Independence from Spain in 1968
Sierra Leone: Independent from UK in 1961, declared a Republic in 1971
Gambia: Independent from UK in 1965, declared a Republic in 1970
Not sure what being Declared a Republic can do .... we'll check on it more later. Now if I did my re-looking right, the following years should be close .... I am thinking that independence doesn't really mean a thing. So the Search continues.
So far ... some time between 1968 and 1972 ....
Blue-birds and Light-houses
So I've had this headache that hasn't completely went away since Sunday. It just goes in and out of being bearable. Last night was one of the worst nights I've had. I could barely stand lights and every time I smelled food, I wanted to hurl. I couldn't believe how bad it hurt and how sensitive I had gotten to the world in those few hours. But it hurt for several hours. I got some Migraine medicine and it didn't help much, just made it a bit more bearable to talk to people. Hmm .... weird things ....
The world is seen through different eyes ....
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Now playing: Blessid Union of Souls - I Believe (Acoustic)
via FoxyTunes
The world is seen through different eyes ....
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Now playing: Blessid Union of Souls - I Believe (Acoustic)
via FoxyTunes
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Fluid Mechanics will kill me!
I wish I knew what I was doing. I wish my teacher could teach or at least my book could explain how to do the problems. But neither of those is so ... I can be sure about that since I've now sat looking through bad notes, and my bad book for up to 3 hours trying to figure out how to do one fucking problem! One problem! I can't get the answer that is in the back, because I don't know how to do it. If I had someone to ask, I would, but I don't .... I have no one this quarter. And it makes switching schools look so much better. A fresh start, a chance to go else where. But why do that now, I am almost half done.
Trade winds and Tales
Nothing too much happening in my world right now. Just classes and homework.
Finally picked up a heater for when it gets cold again. I will need it, but I'm not sure I'm allowed to have one, so trying to keep it hidden while I'm away is what I'll be doing.
Lorri also said they were just going to throw out the globe. I've never owned a globe, so I asked if I could keep it. So maybe its not accurate by any means. Its just from before I can remember learning anything about the world. Its got the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics on it still. too bad they don't put years on them, it'd be nice to know what year its from. But its mine for now. I was just fascinated by how old it was, I hadn't heard of the USSR until after it was Russia. So .....
Now, I have a shit ton of homework, no clean clothes, and I'm tired again. I can't seem to sleep at night, and if I wake up in the middle of the night, my mind won't let me get back to sleep.
Finally picked up a heater for when it gets cold again. I will need it, but I'm not sure I'm allowed to have one, so trying to keep it hidden while I'm away is what I'll be doing.
Lorri also said they were just going to throw out the globe. I've never owned a globe, so I asked if I could keep it. So maybe its not accurate by any means. Its just from before I can remember learning anything about the world. Its got the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics on it still. too bad they don't put years on them, it'd be nice to know what year its from. But its mine for now. I was just fascinated by how old it was, I hadn't heard of the USSR until after it was Russia. So .....
Now, I have a shit ton of homework, no clean clothes, and I'm tired again. I can't seem to sleep at night, and if I wake up in the middle of the night, my mind won't let me get back to sleep.
Friday, October 3, 2008
Lessons and Faith
I believe I have done what needs to be done, for now. I have deleted/blocked what needed to be blocked. And provided the request is followed, should not hear from this person again. If I do, other measures will be taken. Because I have a RIGHT to be happy and to live without harassment. Right now, I am content that things are working okay. And am not sure I could do what might need to be done, but am open to the possibility of finding my true inner strength. I know I am better and stronger than any one thinks. I wouldn't still be here if I weren't strong. And hey the more bull shit I deal with, the stronger I get.
Damn, if anything, all these problems are just making me a stronger, better woman for when I do find the right guy. Until then, I'll be me! And only me! And right now, why not just go back to trying to figure out more about me. I know a lot, but still have growing to do as a person!
Homework all day ..... hopefully I'll get the program done by evening and then I will need to celebrate. Except I discovered, I can't even drink a Mountain Dew. The acid in it hurts as it hits my stomach. Boo ... the things I keep learning I can't eat until my stomach is healed.
Damn, if anything, all these problems are just making me a stronger, better woman for when I do find the right guy. Until then, I'll be me! And only me! And right now, why not just go back to trying to figure out more about me. I know a lot, but still have growing to do as a person!
Homework all day ..... hopefully I'll get the program done by evening and then I will need to celebrate. Except I discovered, I can't even drink a Mountain Dew. The acid in it hurts as it hits my stomach. Boo ... the things I keep learning I can't eat until my stomach is healed.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
2 Days later
So ... I still have a lot of cleaning up to do. Seems it all didn't get completely cleaned up the night it all happened. And I spent most of yesterday just sleeping. I really hate myself for even letting you guys get me that drunk.
And my head still hurts a little ...
And my head still hurts a little ...
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